Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Day 1- Something You Hate About Yourself

I hate the fact that i constantly have to fight off very serious depression. it is debilitating. i am terrified that one day it will set in and i will never leave my bed again.

i hate that people think i can just tell myself "be happy" and it will go away. it isnt just sadness -it is so much more. and i struggle so much with it. i try so hard to fight it off but somehow it sneaks in anyway. i have had problems with it for years and been to many doctors and still struggle to manage it. it is comforting, though, to know i am not alone and that others know what i am going through


  1. its good that you know what you are going through & you don't let it consume you.

    there are some days that I don't want to leave the house, but I think its more of an agoraphobia type thing.

  2. **Hugs** I know how you feel. I've had bouts of depression here and there all my life too. It's draining and it sucks to feel so sad and helpless. All we can do is lift our chins up and fight through another day.

    <3 <3 <3

    You're beautiful and so sweet! I'm glad I "know" you.

    Thera Joyce

  3. hello,
    thanks for visiting my blog.
    yeah people come up to me all the time trying speak to me in spanish. i usually just walk away or say no. when saying no i guess they realize i have a really mountainy(?) accent not a spanish one, then they have a look of realization/embarrassment and walk away.

  4. I know how you feel. I am struggling with depressions and anxiety disorders for years now, have been in therapy for a great part of it. I hate it when people just tell me to get over it and leave "the sad" behind. -.-
    the only advice i can give you is to get help. it's no shame at all and it's a sign of strength to ask for help. And do it soon enough, because you won't be able to do it on your own once you hit rock bottom. Of course, I hope you won't, I hope maybe it's just a phase and it will pass and sadness will fade. just in case, you know :)
    thinking of you,
    xo trish

  5. aw thanks :)
    ive been in treatment for years also. its been very severe,and really should have been hospitalized several times, but i made it through. it helps me to feel better knowing how bad i was and that i came through it ok.
    its great that you are getting help! so many people are ashamed, and im glad youre not!!

  6. i don't really know what to say about that but i've been in treatment for 7 years now and i really hate to talk about it... so, sometime i just say nothing about some post like that...

    just wanted to say something and that you're not alone