Day 1- Something You Hate About Yourself

I hate the fact that i constantly have to fight off very serious depression. it is debilitating. i am terrified that one day it will set in and i will never leave my bed again.

i hate that people think i can just tell myself "be happy" and it will go away. it isnt just sadness -it is so much more. and i struggle so much with it. i try so hard to fight it off but somehow it sneaks in anyway. i have had problems with it for years and been to many doctors and still struggle to manage it. it is comforting, though, to know i am not alone and that others know what i am going through

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30 Days of Truths

(this is what i looked like when i had pink hair-i had it for 2 years but it made my skin look weird so i changed it...)


I found this little 30 day "challenge" over at the Town Mouse in The Country blog http://countrymouseem.blogspot.com/ and decided to join in. Anyone else want to do it with me?
Heres what you post each day:
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

im excited to get started :)
let me know if u wanna join in

Home Decor Inspiration

I am going to be moving soon ( i know ive mentioned this like a million times) and im going to be doing some redecorating. i dont actually have much in the way of furniture-mostly just a mattress, some little bookcases, and a futon. I am reall excited, and have been looking everywhere for inspiration. i want my place to reflect my personality, and be fun and relaxing at the same time. Here are some inspiring spaces:

Here is some furniture Im liking. Im not sure exactly what i want yet, but i like the way these pieces make me feel :)

(furniture via target.com)

(other pics via weheartit)

I've also been doing a lot of adding to my vintage collections. Im really excited about finding cool ways to display them. I hope to find some cool textiles to work with soon, and maybe some awesome vintage furniture. What do you think?

My Trip

My trip to Florida was oil free :) I am SO glad! The ocean breeze helps me relax, and for a little while all my worries go away-its sort of amazing.
Here I am on the beach-please ignore the shiny-ness lol.

Here are some more beach pics that I took

I found this awesome little shop that sells various vintage and handmade goods, plus lots of home decor. Its divided up into booths like an antique mall, and they are opening some small ones soon-I might get one :) Look at all this awesome stuff!

I love mermaids!

I also love old theme parks. A while back, the Miracle Strip themepark was torn down to make room for new condos. Before everything was destroyed, the ferris wheel, carousel, and little balloon rides were rescued. They are now in Pier Park. I took some pics of the rides at night-i just love the lights and the charm!

I wish the amusement park was still there, but this will do :) plus, the waterpark is still there, maybe I will go there next time.

Here are a few more pics of my family

the little bro:

the sis, mom,me,and my sis's friend

Sorry the post is so long-just had so much to share! Hope you all had a great weekend!

Guess where ive been

....Florida! i got to go on a little mini vacation to florida :) a family member just got a super great deal on a little bungalow a block from the beach-so i got to go check it out and stay for free! the water was oil free and the weather was great, and ill have tons of stuff to share tomorrow, but now im too tired-i just got back and i drove the whole way!
oh-and i keep finding suuuper cute stuff that i wanna give away, so im starting a stash for a big giveaway after a while :)
im pretty pooped, so g'night for now.
*sweet dreams* everyone.

And the Winner is..........

I picked a name out of my new little vintage cup and the winner is:

Mary Sew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Congratulations! I'll be contacting you soon for your info so I can mail you your goodies!!

Thanks so much to everyone who entered, and to all my new followers. It makes me so happy to know people actually read my blog :) and i love reading yours too!

stay tuned because i might just have something else up my sleeve in the not-too-distant-future!

Nighty night all.

My First Blog Award!!!!

Today I got my first blog award!!! i am SO excited! Thank you Thera Joyce!!

4 Rules go along with this award:
Rule 1: Thank the person that gave you the award.
Thank you TheraJoyce!! soooooooo much :)

Rule 2: Share 7 things about yourself.

1. I am part Japanese-a happy hapa :) many people think Im Mexican or Middle eastern, I guess because of the way I look
2.I was in a relationship until about a year ago that lasted 9 years.
3. I love hello kitty and cant resist her little face-even on the silliest of things
4. i recently got my first tattoo and i want TONS more!
5. its always been hard for me to make friends. im a very nice person,but i think i scare people away with my quirkiness...or something?
6. i love helping people. it makes me very happy and in about a month i will graduate with a degree in child development and family studies/services and hopefully be able to get paid to do something that makes me happy
7. I want to make a living from my jewelry/accessories business and i am working so hard on it!

Rule 3: Pass the award along to 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic.
1. Under Those Neon Lights http://underthoseneonlights.blogspot.com/
2. Kim Anh Nguyen Art http://kimanhnguyenart.blogspot.com/
3. Cupkay http://cupkay.blogspot.com/
4. Hello, http://helloworld-meggs.blogspot.com/
5.Crafty Pirate http://therajoyce.blogspot.com/
6. The Cookie Button http://thecookiebutton.blogspot.com/
7. susannahbean http://susannahbean.blogspot.com/
8. Of all the Nonsense http://ofallthenonsense.blogspot.com/
9.Life Through a Polaroid Picture http://lifethroughapolaroidpicture.blogspot.com/
10. Little Chief Honeybee http://honeybeeinthecity.blogspot.com/
11.LalaLovely http://lalalovely-lmb.blogspot.com/
12. Bitchcakes http://bavonia.blogspot.com/
13. BlargleFargle http://blarglefargle.blogspot.com/
14.Wolfie Lovehart http://wolfielovehart.blogspot.com/
15.Clockwork Lemon http://seddy5.typepad.com/blog/

Rule 4: Contact the bloggers you've picked and let them know about the award.

By the way-if you get one of these awards from someone else too, i SOOO dont expect you to do more than one list with all the rules, etc :)